a ghost

you say
get away from me
another person say
ill love you forever,
she says
come to me
another person
waits for me,
there is someone
inside me
who cries for help,
there is me
who yells a name,
there is a person
who got my attention,
there is a human
who became my victim,
there is a lust
that no human can ease,
there is a wish
that cant be fulfilled,
there is a hope
that never dies,
there is a pain
in the heart
that never ceases
there is a guilt
that say i must wait
there is a voice
in my head
saying to break my promise,
there is a desperate attempt
to be happy,
there is an abyss
in front of me
there are my wings
that i dont know if
they are ready to fly,
there is a tear
in my cheek tonight,
there is a skar
in my arm
that reminds me
of the tragedy,
there is a tattoo
in my back
who burns me
to stay right where i am,
there is an impulse
to move on,
there are 18 weeks
behind this bullshit,
there is a friend
who is lost,
there is a person
who travels
to the other side of the world
to be away from me,
because of me,
there is a hand
i will not take
even when i fall,
there is not
your hand
when i need to get up,
there is a smell
that wont get out my nose,
there is a mask
i have to wear everyday
,there is your prescence
who lingers here,
there is the sound
of your laugh who
echoes in the wall
there is a poet
who says im his muse,
there is my muse
who does not even look at me,
there is a happiness
i will never reach
there is a future
ill never get to see
...right now there is just me.....