dreams4

Nightmares are eating me from the inside
almost every night is ths same
weird nightmare
dreams that reminds me of the person i love
and remarking me
he is gone
this time
i was in and old house
i used to live
when i was like 12 years old
i was in my bedroom
just whatching TV
and i moved to the other side of the bed
and he was there just watching Tv with me
looking serious almost mad
forcing me to stay still
he walked away
i try to follow
but he always walks away
as i remain in the room
then water always fill teh room
and i drown
when i wake up
i have a weird animal next to me
have only one eye
is kind of green and yellow
is swimming next to me
we are in something that appears like ruins

we swim, the creature is completely dependant of me
i dont know what it is
i dont knwo where i am
neither where i go
but that creature in there
looked at me with sad sweetness in its eyes
he needs me
he follows me
and dont want to let me leave
or be away from him or her
and i feel the urge
of not to let him or her alone
i need to protect this little things
i just feel like it is what i want to do
makes sweet sounds
when i take it in my arms
and press it against my chest
he needs me
and we swim
always holding him
looking for an exit
some parts of the ruins are dry
we rest in there
but he likes the water
but i feel this coldness
i feel sick
but t he little creature needs me
i look for the person i love
i look for my dear neko
and i hold the little creature
and in my dream
i fall sleep while i drown...
there are 2 things i know so far
i have lived 1037 weeks, 3 days,14 hours and 48 minutes
and in all this time i have only loved once
but i know i dont love to live
but live to love
but the affection of my love
seems so faraway
second thing
im starting to fear water
as it always try to hurt me .....