the link

I have been told beautiful things
but i was told
as b day present
the most beautiful thing i have ever seen
thank you my friend.


"I’ve know you for a long time now, and I know you very well, specially, because I know myself. I can see myself in you, or at least the shadow of what I used to be. I know your heart is broken and aching, because my heart is broken too. It’s been broken for a long time. I know what it is like not being able to forget someone, not being able to stop wanting that person anymore. To stop viciously fantasizing with the taste of her lips kissing yours. Not being able to cleanse your heart from a non returned lover. Having to deal with rejection, and surrendering to melancholic inertia. It’s like falling in love with a mythical creature, one that does not really exist, and will never be able to even speak to you with real words.

I know sometimes in the night you look for something in the darkness, something you are not able to find between your empty cold sheets, and so you cry instead of sleeping, you fear instead of dreaming. Those long lonely nights torturing you with memories, and “what if?”s and “what will be?”s, tearing your heart in solitude and emptiness.

I know that sometimes when you smile, a drop of pain struggles to wipe your smile away, and you have to fight to keep smiling among your friends.

I know what it is like to love your friends with all your heart, because their the only reason keeping you away from completely falling apart, locking yourself up in your messy bedroom, hiding from the world until everything just ends. But you don’t want to depend on them either, and there’s so many things you hide from them, just to not make them worry for you. Just to give them some peace of mind.

I know sometimes your forced to be somebody else, because your mind cant handle so much within one single personality, and sometimes its humiliating, and anguishing to be considered a faker or mentally ill by those who will never understand the odd experiences of a tormented mind. I understand what it is like to be left alone with your own mind playing tricks on you, your own mind as your enemy, trying to crack you up. I know how it is like to be agonizing in silence, hating yourself, the reflection on the mirror, that mimic you can barely recognize, blaming yourself for not being good enough to rise upon the others, not being good enough for the one you love, not being good enough for yourself. I know what it is like to feel like a soul that will never belong to a world that feeds with hate, a world with no place for those who are different. Those who think live and love differently than the great human mass. The human hatters, pointing their fingers at you, laughing, fighting, trying to push you against the corner, trying to make you look miserable, week, and depressed, so they can feed their insecure dried up hearts with your misery, as their pleasure is your pain. I know the feeling of not belonging to anything anymore, to have your dreams taken from you. To have nothing else to look up for in this life. The hope of someday becoming a lonely star at the very end of our galaxy, to create our own worlds, with our own rules.

I wish I could have something better to say, something encouraging and positive, but the only thing I can say is that I will always share your pain.

I know you very well, I know you, because I know myself, and we will always share a special link.

I will never forget you, please, don’t forget me."

By L30